I don't know if anyone else is feeling this way, but I'm staring down the barrel of the holiday season and realizing that the year is almost over and I haven't been nearly as productive as I'd like. Did you know that I've only designed two patterns this entire year?! And only one of them has been released as of this post. I'm supposed to be revising the other but the renovations and my finals really got in the way. I'm tired all the time. I'm waking up at the crack of dawn to drive Dante to seminary. I'm managing Alex's behavior modification plan at school, from home. I'm still chasing down the moving parts that I need to transfer out of Kaplan and into Salve Regina. I'm still putting my apartment back together and now that I'm almost done I've run right out of steam. I've hardly baked anything.
The only thing I'm proud of this year (knitting wise) is that I finally put a deadline on my holiday commissioned work and I've stuck to it. Halloween was the deadline, and I've turned down two offers of work this week. I really want to be able to bake cookies for Santa and I want to knit things for my own family this year. Alex's sweater is wanting a zipper and Dante's TARDIS socks need a mate. Aaron's Christmas socks from two years ago are finished and need to be washed, but he'll be getting them after a very long wait.
Things just got crazy after I started grad school and was called into the Young Woman's program. I'm busier than I ever thought I'd be and I'm having a really hard time keeping up with it all. I missed out on participating in the Gift-a-long on Ravelry because I was busy with the renovations, and honestly, I'm not sure if I could have pulled it together enough to participate. I've been getting emails about adding a Craftsy widget to my website and I know it would be a good tool to use but it takes brain power that I just don't have right now to set that up, lol. Patterns are coming out like gang busters and I'm watching it all, feeling like I've lost my mojo. It's not that the ideas aren't there; I just don't have the extra energy to devote to the work. When I was working on my bachelor's degree, I always felt more creative when my work load increased but grad school is a whole different animal.
So in summary, things are crazy (as usual), I'm tired (as usual), and I haven't had the time to design much this year (this is new). I hope to have my feet back under me by the new year and maybe I'll even have a design going by then. We can dream right?